You Know AGE is Creeping Up On You.....

....when your doctor orders a mammogram. I have always associated this test with older women. I felt good that I had time on my side, a few more years before I hit the big 40’s. Every time I was in her office, I would deliberately ask the doctor whether it was time for me to get the test done knowing very well that it wasn’t, just so I can hear her say, "no, not until you are forty". It felt good to be seen as a young woman who needn’t worry about this additional health precaution until this morning, when the nice doctor politely suggested that I get one done, in the next few months. A preliminary, baseline view of my breasts so that they will have something to compare to when this turns into yet another annual exam.

No I am not 40 but will be in three years. I have 1095 days left before this test is added to my list of health check-ups. I must say, I was somewhat mortified when she handed me the radiology slip. An unintentional pathetic reminder of how quickly time’s passing by. It made me sad, made me realize how slow and sluggish I have become in the recent years.

This morning I woke up with a back pain, something that is happening often – not just my back, everything hurts nowadays. I attribute this to my sedentary life devoid of healthy eating and exercise. My energy levels have dipped tremendously, I don’t sleep well at night. I wake up feeling tired rather than rejuvenated. My skin is wrinkly and no, don't get me started on the damn cellulite. I don’t have the stamina to keep up with my small kids and their demands. Irritability is my second name and I am on the verge of driving Hubby Dear and kids nuts!

So what’s the point of this post? I AM GETTING OLD!!!!!

In three short years, I enter a new decade in my life – one I am not sure I am ready to face both physically and mentally.
I know I shouldn’t be worrying about this or wasting my time thinking about something I have no control over since it's about living and seizing the moment, carpe diem, it’s all in the mind, yadda, yadda, yadda…but I can’t help but wonder-where have all the years gone? All 37 of my life…..